Xinzaru aka Natz life

Changes…its what everybody wants…changes in every aspects of life…But if you want a change, why don’t work it out yourself instead of relying on people to do it for you, or change their course of their lives for you while you just shake your legs around…

This words came from my mind after a mixture of thoughts. Thoughts? What thoughts? Probably it seems a little weird for a person like me to actually think much about a matter, but then it just came out from my mind. My mom just described to me how people complain in the office of the new DUN. The things they complain, its not something that can’t be done by their own hands, but why not do it themselves? Reason is simple, “It’s their job to do it for us, let them do their job.” From that are you telling me we have no responsibility at all into improving our own place? Our own habitat?

That’s just as an example. People tend to rely on others to do changes while not doing anything themselves. Sad to say, I’ve meet up with some future adults which acted the same way which i mentioned. Don’t meet up with their criteria? You’re out! Not bloody welcomed anymore. Not much of the use to them anymore. Don’t have to look at politics to see this kinda situation. It’s known that some make friends to make sure that they change for the better and more, but some just misuses the needs of the change and hurt people when use of the friend has a purpose. A purpose once reach it limits then off you go. That’s not what its suppose to be.

Some might think…a person will not change anything. For me, a person can change his/her self and eventually change the world itself. So change what you are able to change, don’t leave for others. (ps: blogging in the middle of the night really ain’t good…XD feeling sleeping liao…tata~~)

maturity….how does it measured?

i dont really understand how others can do so…

for me…maturity is not measured by looking ones appearance, ones action at normal time,ones movement nor any other things dat is only viewed from the outside…

maturity is measured thru ones reaction towards a decision making situation or a situation dat requires much deeper thoughts of mind. Every decision dat one makes, every step dat one take decides he/her’s level maturity…maturity of words used is the most basic amongst all elements…

agree? haha…some might just say i’m mature but to many i’m still a kid dat one speaks lk most other immatured ppl does….haha… so which am i?haha…

what….why….

the two most famous words that comes out from a kids mouth…seems like we have known these words since young…but…have you wondered….what is what & why, why is why why & why is what what?

haha…very confusing?thinking that this is something that need not even a single glimpse appear in mind? think again…we often ask questions & why not ask why and what are these?^^

why?

why why?

why is why why?

why do ever use why when we don’t even know why is why?

what?

what is what?

when did what came about in our life where we need to use what as what?

haha…even confused?thinking it’s nonsense? think about? try reading it in a way, and then put again yourself in a shoe of a kid…full of questions and wanted to start to know about the basics of life… interesting?…haha…want the answer? find it yourself…^^

i’m really touch for so many dat hav responded when i was at disstress…i’m sry dat i’ve made u all worried bout me n stuff n i’m grateful dat u all came to comfort me^^ happy dat i was till now… i’ve learnt some things…dat changing oneself for others is not the way of living life…is how one real self blends into ppl’s life^^ i promise u all…u will c da same old me again…wif better improvements^^

OMG!!!my housemate called me up from my nap…first thing dat came into my mind,"wat da heck, i’m having my nice nap leh..’ but till he asked…Tong!laptop missing liao!!! I sprung up from my cozy bed and ran out from my room..quickly i glance thru my table…’GONE!!!ALL GONE!!!’ i thought… i really could not think anymore…my precious laptop gone liao!!! quickly me n jun jie(my housemate who also lost our laptop together, same model sumore) went to guard house to ask for da playback of the cctv in da block…the result,"i’m sorry sir, v r new here so v dont really noe how to do it."

Wat da!! great…they dunno how to do n my laptop could b on the way to Ipoh,(btw the laptop was stolen between an hour) and this is wat i get…so me n my frens( v call some) went to the management office and the p-i-c said need a black n white of a police report.I was about to tell da p-i-c ‘Lady, if dat was your stuff i dont think u r willing to wait for long rite?!!’ but then i chilled down so did she asked me to cool down and go to make a report…v waited for long in da station too..almost half an hour…i was wondering do ever noe wat their motto means…

But watever lah…quickly v made da report…and for da investigating team…v hav to go to sentul..okay time to go to…SENTUL!!!!!!!!!!!! wat da heck…dats freakin’ far dude…darn, wat to do jun jie say…slowly v move ahead to get a cab back but v walk quite sometime n found out v almost reach our place liao…lol…BAKA!! v shouted.. when v reached back, my parents call to ask,then jun jie got a call,its from da police station telling us to head to their station at 9pm instead of going to sentul…thx god.. so now..i rest this post now…waiting for wat i think its kinda impossible and let her comfort me for the nite being n study at late nite for da next days test..sigh

Whoa!!!starting of da day…da first dat i thought of was dat today is da day of presentation and the day, for so long i wear formal^^. It’s like once in a  blue moon for me…After for so long of ‘cold’ war with the other members due to the lousy proposal we manage to come out with a very spectacular slide shows for the presentation. We were al glad. In campus i was feelng awkward coz i’m wearing formal…haha…weird huh..

During the time of presentation, i was really convinced dat the show was good…till Ms Catherine start bombarding questions according to the proposal…the best i didnt noe they changed da thing b4 they pass it up n now…all da hard work…GONE!!! argh!!! i was so frustrated…I could not stand the disappointment in my heart…sigh..

After the whole session, the left over of us came out to take some pics…I noe dat she knew dat i feel bad the presentation..so she comforted me…^^ kinda happy bout it^^

Haha…blogging…my first time..^^ happy i am coz i dont really noe wat blogging is…so i just tried since i’m just so ‘watever’ly tired with my studies n wanna rest a ‘lil’…^^

Many said life is nothing but a circle..when we come in we go out in the end, and then it starts all over again. But life is more like a game..a game for the Almighty(anything you say, God, Allah, or even machines like the Matrix), a life game simulator like The Sims(only a larger scale…lol)…We can really say much, complain, or even to change the way of life, the path the has already set. To some it may seems that they have stand out from the old life, being much better than before, changed their life and some even say destiny…but there is actually no running away from what really life is…what their own life REALLY is… Dramatic? not at all… Exaggerating? maybe a little but its what i meant… Nothing more nothing less…Cruel?hmmm… if u think it is, then it is…You give in to cruelty as part of your life, cruelty will take whatever you give and make it even more cruel…You may change the out come from the physical side, but what about mentally? Life is invietable so just live in it…not on it but in it…Anything you do is part of life so accept it, and may you all be peaceful with Life. No one can really achieve it…not even me…but we are all trying…that’s what us are good at,TRY!!! ^^v